Our granddaughter spends the night at our house every couple of weeks. We have a loveseat cushion that is just the right size for an almost 4-year-old and we made it into a little bed on the floor of the room next to ours. Because there is a double bed in the room as […]
I really enjoyed the 24 hours I had when I thought I had made a tiny connection with my daughter. Then…as the title implies, the door slammed shut in my face and I am outside again, looking at the locked door and wondering what to do next.
When I sent The Little Vine story to […]
My week was a mix of the cute, the busy and the emotionally draining.
We were going to ignore Halloween and just work late, however some neighbors invited us over for a “on their driveway” potluck along with tables set up with bowls of candy for the trick or treaters. We went to that and […]
God doesn’t need me to save the world.
Really.
God can choose to use others to help someone in need besides me. Sometimes I forget that. I see a need and in my overwhelming anxiety to “fix” everybody and everything, I lose track of the fact that I am not always the best one to do […]
The Road Not Taken
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though […]
When I thought about how to write that I’m moving forward a little bit at a time, the book The Little Engine That Could by Watty Piper came to mind. I have always loved that story…the plucky little train engine that when faced with a big hill and an uncertainty with respect to success […]
I’m depressed. I think I would rather be just sad though in truth I am probably more than that. For those that know me though this is anonymous, don’t worry, I not suicidal…just writing out my feelings…attempting to blog my way out of this emotional state I am in.
I feel a bleak heaviness deep inside […]
Yesterday evening will forever be a memory I will cherish. My eldest son graduated from his police academy last night. As he and his classmates filed into the room packed with family and friends, I couldn’t help tearing up. I watched him walk in, straight and proud, all 6’7″ of him, and all I […]
It’s the end of the day and I am sitting against pillows on my bed with my laptop propped on my lap. I am weary to the core of my being right now. I have been dreading this day for weeks now and am glad the day’s events are behind me.
My husband and I […]
I wrote this blog a few weeks ago, intending to post it in a couple of days. Twenty four hours later, my daughter called me hysterically crying and talking about suicide again. In the blog I had written, I had been thinking about the need to cut off the financial help to my daughter […]
