God doesn’t need me to save the world.
Really.
God can choose to use others to help someone in need besides me. Sometimes I forget that. I see a need and in my overwhelming anxiety to “fix” everybody and everything, I lose track of the fact that I am not always the best one to do […]
The Road Not Taken
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though […]
When I thought about how to write that I’m moving forward a little bit at a time, the book The Little Engine That Could by Watty Piper came to mind. I have always loved that story…the plucky little train engine that when faced with a big hill and an uncertainty with respect to success […]
I’m depressed. I think I would rather be just sad though in truth I am probably more than that. For those that know me though this is anonymous, don’t worry, I not suicidal…just writing out my feelings…attempting to blog my way out of this emotional state I am in.
I feel a bleak heaviness deep inside […]
Yesterday evening will forever be a memory I will cherish. My eldest son graduated from his police academy last night. As he and his classmates filed into the room packed with family and friends, I couldn’t help tearing up. I watched him walk in, straight and proud, all 6’7″ of him, and all I […]
It’s the end of the day and I am sitting against pillows on my bed with my laptop propped on my lap. I am weary to the core of my being right now. I have been dreading this day for weeks now and am glad the day’s events are behind me.
My husband and I […]
I wrote this blog a few weeks ago, intending to post it in a couple of days. Twenty four hours later, my daughter called me hysterically crying and talking about suicide again. In the blog I had written, I had been thinking about the need to cut off the financial help to my daughter […]
My husband suggested this title when I told him that I hadn’t been blogging because I was too angry at “everything” to write anything “nice”. His idea made me laugh so I decided I actually would write a blog with that title.
In my lofty dreams of who I am as a person, I am […]
My daughter is apparently getting out of jail soon on probation. Normally that would be cause for celebration however I am furious with her. Not just peeved…teeth grinding, smoke coming from my ears, eyes shooting flames angry with her. Instead of using her time in jail (jailed since April 2016, sentenced since August) to […]
A week ago, my oldest son, 28, proposed to his girlfriend. In our family, metaphorical fireworks are going off in dazzling displays of pattern and color. My husband and I…and our extended family…absolutely adore this young woman and her family feels the same about our son. We are going to have a wedding in […]
