I wrote this blog a few weeks ago, intending to post it in a couple of days. Twenty four hours later, my daughter called me hysterically crying and talking about suicide again. In the blog I had written, I had been thinking about the need to cut off the financial help to my daughter […]
I choose pictures for my blog that represent what I am writing about, whether directly or through a visual metaphor. In this case, I chose a night sky more as a metaphor to the nightmare I will be describing. In the picture above, there is still darkness, it’s still night but there is some […]
My husband suggested this title when I told him that I hadn’t been blogging because I was too angry at “everything” to write anything “nice”. His idea made me laugh so I decided I actually would write a blog with that title.
In my lofty dreams of who I am as a person, I am […]
My daughter is apparently getting out of jail soon on probation. Normally that would be cause for celebration however I am furious with her. Not just peeved…teeth grinding, smoke coming from my ears, eyes shooting flames angry with her. Instead of using her time in jail (jailed since April 2016, sentenced since August) to […]
A week ago, my oldest son, 28, proposed to his girlfriend. In our family, metaphorical fireworks are going off in dazzling displays of pattern and color. My husband and I…and our extended family…absolutely adore this young woman and her family feels the same about our son. We are going to have a wedding in […]
I have seen for years now how my daughter has run simultaneous “realities” with different people. I put “reality” in quotes because though all of them have bits of truth in them, none of them reflect the complete truth of her actual lifestyle.
An analogy would be the game show that used to be on […]
My husband and I sat in the courtroom today while my daughter was sentenced. I feel relieved that the 3 months of waiting is over (from arrest to sentencing). I feel like crying except I am on a plane right now. I feel like throwing up. I also feel that the judge was fair […]
A little sapling grew with 3 others in a close knit family group. One sapling looked so much like her that other trees mixed them up or just called them the twins. The little tree mostly didn’t mind but as she grew she did sometimes wish others would know her as one sapling rather […]
My siblings, their spouses and kids came in from various locations around the country and gathered in my hometown over Memorial Day weekend. The reason for our reunion was to conduct a family graveside service for our Mom and inter her ashes with our Dad who passed away a decade ago.
We all wanted to […]
I am so glad that I talked recently by phone with my daughter’s fiancé and was able to get to know him, even if briefly. My impression is that of a decent young man who fell in love with an illusion of my daughter rather than the real person…or at least the real behavior.
I […]
